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November 9th, 2008 @ 8.47 pm

One question Beverly and I keep coming back to is what is God’s plan for us, and where does he want us? He’s given us both great jobs in the Columbia area, and a place to live very close to my office until next spring. But in terms of our friends and church family, we feel in limbo. We love our friends from college, even though they’re becoming more and more scattered across the world, and we’ve been in a good small group at church, but that is a 40 minute drive away in Arnold. But we don’t feel settled at all.

We feel like we’re missing God’s plan for us. Should we look for a house in Columbia and find a new church? Should we look for a house closer to Arnold and drive farther to work, but still have a 15 mile drive to Broadneck EP Church? Should we move to Catonsville that is both farther from work and just as far from church, but is cheaper, has more of a small town feel, and is where both of us went to college? Should we quit our jobs and become missionaries/ photo journalists/ ambassadors of Ultimate in a foreign country?

Right now our lives feel scattered, or like we don’t fit. Beverly’s spending lots of time studying for her Masters degree, we’re never caught up on the laundry or dishes, there’s always pictures to edit and put online, my VW is always needing work and located at my parent’s house, some event is always taking up all of Saturday, and church on Sunday is a 40 minute drive each way. On top of all this, I haven’t been getting the exercise I want to, haven’t been reading my Bible or any other books I’ve been given/ want to read, haven’t invited friends over to hang out, and haven’t spent any time just relaxing. (For those of you families with kids, I have absolutely no idea how you do it. Beverly’s killed all but one plant she has, and I don’t think I could keep a goldfish alive. I honestly view our “household” as two children and zero “adults.”) As much as I like the concept of small communities that make up Columbia, I utterly despise it for it’s complete yuppiness and desire to make everything neat and orderly through insane HOA restrictions.

At church I love the people and the staff, but we feel we don’t belong in any of the circles. There’s four Adult Christian Education classes: College and Career, Parent’s of Middle/ High Schoolers, Parent’s of Young Kids, and “Everyone in All Seasons of Life.” We’re too old and married to fit in with the College and Career crowd, but we don’t have any kids to make us fit in with the Parent’s of Young Kids crowd either. I know there aren’t enough for a Young, Married without Kids group, but that’s where we fall.

So where does God want us?